If I give the world permission...

There’s so many things we are expected to do, to be, to say, to act on, etc. I’ve said it before but my two goals above anything else is to always be a good mom and a good wife. Some may think those are really shallow aspirations: Where’s your career goals? Where’s your ambition to better yourself and not others? To be honest, all of those things are wrapped up in the good mom/wife objective. They don’t need to be specifically targeted. Putting my focus on those two roles doesn’t take away my identity of “me.” In the same breath, I do realize that I can’t be everything to everyone. ⁣⁣
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I can’t make everyone happy all the time. And that’s really hard for me, because I absolutely *LIVE* to crack a smile on anyone’s face at any time of day in any situation. Ultimately, you will disappoint people some way or another. Sometimes it’s for a good reason; sometimes it’s a down right crazy situation. We spend so much time worrying about it, analyzing it, replaying it differently in our minds...You start feeling like you’re not enough. ⁣
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Here’s the thing that I try to tell myself when I feel like I’m falling short on being a good wife/mom:

If I give the world permission to think whatever they want to think about me, I am free from feeling like I am not enough. ❤️

I know...easier said than done. And literally when I tell myself that, my face looks like this ➡️ 🙁

I don’t know why I struggle with being/doing enough for everyone. I think it’s a natural ebb and flow of being a mother and a wife. I have days where I absolutely feel like I am killing it! Sometimes I read back on some of my posts here and think “WOW…I did a good job that day!” But when you’re in the moment, you’re like “Damn, I forgot to do X, Y, and Z” or you “should-have” yourself.

What’s important is that I never have days where I failed to be a good mom or a good wife (or at least in my own expectation of what that is) and then look back and say “yeah, I did fail.” I somehow always find something I did right or I remember Waylin’s smile from that day. And that’s what keeps me moving forward. If I just keep accumulating those types of days, I’ll live a lifetime of being a good mom and a good wife.

2020, let’s keep the good times rolling!