Our Greatest Adventure...
I haven't blogged in quite awhile, because we have some exciting news!
The Bohlen family is growing!
I can hardly believe it sometimes! I just ran into one of my old "IT guy" friends at work, and told him the news. He said, "Congratulat-wait, I thought you didn't want kids?" LOL...and the truth is, I used to believe that! I kinda came to this realization a couple years ago when I "re-met" Benjamin that sometimes you don't know what you want until you meet the right person. In my previous relationship, I NEVER envisioned myself getting married or having children, and I shouted that at the rooftops! I was so sure of myself, that I never cared if I hurt anyone's feelings.
Marriage seemed too permanent to me...Coming from divorced parents, I grew up thinking that I would never want to go through something like that; let alone, with children involved. It felt safer to believe that never getting married was a better option. Less heartbreak, less expectations, and less commitment. When I started dating Ben, I found myself wanting all the things I said I never wanted (the house, the marriage, the family, etc). And that is truly a humbling experience, because you feel like you don't know who you are anymore.
And now here I am! Married (still shocking...) and pregnant (even MORE shocking!). Both of those things just felt right with Benjamin, and they never felt that way with anyone else. I feel like I am where I'm supposed to be, even if I'm a little late to the game.
This is the only sonogram that I have of our baby, which really doesn't show much. The doctor described it as "a little gummy bear" which seems fitting if you look at it! I am currently typing this as I am almost 19 weeks along and haven't had a sonogram since the one above! For being a high risk pregnancy, it surprises me that Carle doesn't provide me with more scans to ensure that the baby is developing correctly and is healthy. But, I just have to trust that everything is going to be ok.
We find out what we're having on June 9th!
